If you don't know me by now

In a job, facing people could be the most difficult aspect.
Unlike figures which you can manipulate or papers which doesnt scream at you no matter what, people are infact the extremes of good and bad.
Fortunately or not, that's my job.
Deal with it and somehow I dont feel that I am not coping well. I am just tired of them sometimes.

Sometimes I thought the most irritating aspect of our relationship is that you don't and/or can't seem to know me at the needed times.
I hate it too that I can't verbalize feelings to you.

The problem is when I am in those mood of really so crazy about you, you appeared distant to me emotionally.
I believed I did drop hints to you many a times hoping you could settle my insecurities.
But night after night, I did not get a return message. Even if you are asleep by then, I do believe you have the next morning to return.
And when I am getting sick of that and shut my door, you come back to me becoming really sweet and affectionate, just as what I needed.

I mean...blame who?
Honestly I didnt blame you or am angry.
But I am just wearsome.And then you suggest all other factors that contribute to my moodiness when you already know what is the real reason.

Maybe I am too emotional needy for my own good.
Maybe I am too capable of hiding in my shell for self protection.

Sigh..I don't already care much about us meeting as easily as before cos' I had already accepted by hard that it's not gonna happen. I know perhaps in the future if we are still there together, the present time we share would be more difficult and little.

Sometimes I feel..being alone aint that bad of a thing.
The idea of 2 people being together is just another responsibility and commitment for people who wanna take things serious.
Life's short...what for?

Sleepy,not.
But why not?

If you don't know me by now
You will never never never know me

All the things that we've been through
You should understand me like I understand you
Now girl I know the difference between right and wrong
I ain't gonna do nothing to break up our happy home
Oh don't get so excited when I come home a little late at night
Cos we only act like children when we argue fuss and fight

If you don't know me by now (If you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (No you won't)
If you don't know me by now
You will never never never know me

We've all got our own funny moods
I've got mine, woman you've got yours too
Just trust in me like I trust in you
As long as we've been together it should be so easy to do
Just get yourself together or we might as well say goodbye
What good is a love affair when you can't see eye to eye, oh

If you don't know me by now (If you don't know me)
You will never never never know me (No you won't)
If you don't know me by now (You will never never never know me)
You will never never never know me (ooh)
-Simply Red